We’ve all done something that we later regretted right? Wished that we could go back in time and change it, even though we know that that isn’t the case. Yea, I’ve had those moments….a few too many times in fact. Yet, I’ve always picked up and moved on knowing I can’t change what was done.
In this case, though, I do regret it tremendously and while I am doing as I usually would and picking up and moving on, I’m not quite sure it is the best I could do. You see, about a year ago, I gave up almost everything that I cared about in order to be with someone. Friendships were ended, things were destroyed and memories were about all I had left of the person that I had once been. So fast forward a little bit now, I’ve left the relationship and tried to put things back together again as best I can. Unfortunately, that is not as easy as it would seem. After all, people change. People I once considered quite close to me, will no longer speak to me. Not that honestly I really blame them after what it was that I did, but still…it’s hard to move on without some people.
Yet, even so, I will learn to live with that too. I will learn to deal with the consequences of the choices that I made and learn to live. I will find new friends, though I’m sure that they probably wont be nearly as good as the old ones at first. Even so though, you know what? It’s going to be what I need to be in the end. So maybe I’ll cry a little in the end but I’ll still end up exactly where I’m meant to be in the end of it.